... i hate being disappointed.... but even more so i hate setting myself up for disappointment...

... i get excited about something so trivial... and then it doesn't work out and i'm angry...

... that angry is then directed at the people that i care about most... people who really have nothing to do with my being upset in the first place...

... i feel bad almost immediately afterwards but by then it is too late and the damage is done... and all i can do is apologize which at times seems insignificant...

... i need to learn to control my emotions or more importantly how to deal with disappointment...

...because really this is part of life

.. i am sorry